We've had a fairly routine and boring week. My knight has been completing his task lists without any problems. I'm been mostly remembering to pull him into our bedroom when he gets home for a short reminder of why we keep the dynamic. I try to vary the coming home tasks each day. One day I had him masturbate for me, another I had him get on his knees in front of me and tell me his 2 favorite things about our flr. Another day, I had him strip for me, and I spent two or three minutes playing with his cock before I told him to get dressed and walked away.
I haven't yet used the hook that I had him install in our doorway a few weeks ago. Last Saturday, I thought about it, but we both got side tracked watching a marathon of a British tv series. When we finally decided we were done for the night it was 3 am, and we were both tired.
I've decided that I'm going to edit the masturbation video he made for me a few weeks back, and post it on-line somewhere. Knight likes to be watched, and putting him out there for all the world to see is a good reward for him. In fact, I'm thinking about making and posting a series of videos of him, and then when he does something that pleases me, I'll post one. I'm working to make our average world a bit more sexualized. I don't exactly have a high sex drive, and it's easy for me to get busy and put off sex play for other things. At the same time, I think about sex a lot, and play out fantasies in my head almost daily. Then, when knight gets home, I don't act on those thoughts because I'm never sure how he'll react.
I still haven't given him the chastity device that I bought. It's sitting in a dresser drawer. Actually, I haven't given it to him yet because I'm 99% sure it's to damned small. I ordered a cheap off-brand from an unknown company, and now I regret it. And, again, I have no idea how he's going to react. I've brought the topic up four or five times, but gotten no real response. Either he ignores my comments, or gives me a non-committal answer that tells me nothing. He does that frequently, and I don't get why. Is it because he's not interested and doesn't want to tell me, or because he IS interested and is afraid of how I'll respond, or does he simply not care either way. I have no idea.
But the idea of having him locked sometimes and teasing him about the device sounds fun. I wrote a story a week or two ago about making him work a bit to get me to unlock him. In the story, after he was unlocked, I edged him several times over the space of an afternoon, but locked him back up without letting him orgasm. It was a fun little story. I haven't let him read it yet.
There are other things I'd like to do to him, things that really get me going when I think about them, but again... I don't do them because I don't know how he'll react.
Hmmm.. maybe it's not that I have a low sex drive, but more that I'm not doing the things that turn me on because I'm uncertain how my knight will react. Which, when I think about it, is stupid because he has fantasies that he won't share with me because he says he's afraid I'll think are "too extreme." Again with the communication problems between us.
That's the root of our problems, isn't it. Lack of communication.