Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Fairly Boring Week

We've had a fairly routine and boring week. My knight has been completing his task lists without any problems. I'm been mostly remembering to pull him into our bedroom when he gets home for a short reminder of why we keep the dynamic. I try to vary the coming home tasks each day. One day I had him masturbate for me, another I had him get on his knees in front of me and tell me his 2 favorite things about our flr. Another day, I had him strip for me, and I spent  two or three minutes playing with his cock before I told him to get dressed and walked away.

I haven't yet used the hook that I had him install in our doorway a few weeks ago. Last Saturday, I thought about it, but we both got side tracked watching a marathon of a British tv series. When we finally decided we were done for the night it was 3 am, and we were both tired.

I've decided that I'm going to edit the masturbation video he made for me a few weeks back, and post it on-line somewhere. Knight likes to be watched, and putting him out there for all the world to see is a good reward for him. In fact, I'm thinking about making and posting a series of videos of him, and then when he does something that pleases me, I'll post one. I'm working to make our average world a bit more sexualized.  I don't exactly have a high sex drive, and it's easy for me to get busy and put off sex play for other things. At the same time, I think about sex a lot, and play out fantasies in my head almost daily. Then, when knight gets home, I don't act on those thoughts because I'm never sure how he'll react.

I still haven't given him the chastity device that I bought. It's sitting in a dresser drawer. Actually, I haven't given it to him yet because I'm 99% sure it's to damned small. I ordered a cheap off-brand from an unknown company, and now I regret it. And, again, I have no idea how he's going to react. I've brought the topic up four or five times, but gotten no real response. Either he ignores my comments, or gives me a non-committal answer that tells me nothing. He does that frequently, and I don't get why. Is it because he's not interested and doesn't want to tell me, or because he IS interested and is afraid of how I'll respond, or does he simply not care either way. I have no idea.

But the idea of having him locked sometimes and teasing him about the device sounds fun. I wrote a story a week or two ago about making him work a bit to get me to unlock him. In the story, after he was unlocked, I edged him several times over the space of an afternoon, but locked him back up without letting him orgasm. It was a fun little story. I haven't let him read it yet.

There are other things I'd like to do to him, things that really get me going when I think about them, but again... I don't do them because I don't know how he'll react.

Hmmm.. maybe it's not that I have a low sex drive, but more that I'm not doing the things that turn me on because I'm uncertain how my knight will react. Which, when I think about it, is stupid because he has fantasies that he won't share with me because he says he's afraid I'll think are "too extreme."  Again with the communication problems between us.

That's the root of our problems, isn't it. Lack of communication.


3 comments:

  1. Hi Angelique,
    I love your blog, you say your not sure if He cares either way, I don't know if he wants it or not, I do guarantee that he does care.

    As to your worry about your ideas, can I suggest you tie him up, tease him a little and then tell him three you would like to do to him and tell him he must choose one, I promise you he will love it, any man would.

    Enjoy
    m

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  2. I compliment you on making the effort to sexualize your daily life. My wife also is capable of some very erotic, kinky ideas, but is just too busy with life to slow down and do them. She also reminds me that her sex drive is slowing as she gets older. Although I have lots and lots of ideas of what I would like to do (mostly extreme), she prefers to come up with her own ideas. Generally when she does it is a delightful surprise to me.
    We have a communication problem too. I don't want to push things on her and I think she feels like talking about sex will encourage me to want more. In general though, I would say that becoming more involved with WLM has led to opening communications between us. Just like many things in a relationship, you need to work at it, but it is worth it.

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    1. You could simply ask her if she feels that way. I wish my knight would talk about sex. I have fun verbally teasing him and sending him suggestive emails at work. I used to send him suggestive and down right sexually blatant emails two or three times a week. He never answered them, never even acknowledged them. I told him it upset me when he ignored those emails, but it never changed. Eventually, I quit sending them. Same with talking about sex. There was a point where I verbally teased him often. Just like with the emails, I got no response, so I finally quit.

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