I am so tired of the back and forth. Knight had been slipping on basic rules again. I've been sick all week. (not sick actually, but a healing crisis brought on by the CBD oil I'm taking for the ms). I've been dizzy, light headed, and very fatigued. I'm having trouble with my asthma, too. These things mean that I am just not feeling up to putting up with, or dealing with his bullshit. I need him to simply do what he is supposed to.
He hasn't been bringing me his list each evening, and small things on his daily list have gone undone. He's totally blown off the rule that he is to be undressed in our bedroom. He's stopped getting my evening med when the alarm goes off unless I specifically ask him to do it. I told him long ago, that I shouldn't have to ask for it. When the alarm goes off, I want him to go get my med for me, and bring me a cup of tea with it. I've had to either ask or do it myself every day for the past 2 weeks.
He has gotten better about not assuming we'll be watching a movie when we go into the bedroom each night. He's remembered to make the bed almost every morning, and he's gotten in the habit of turning on the space heater for me in the morning. Knight also did laundry the other evening when I told him I didn't get to it because I wasn't feeling well. But, when you get down to it, he wanted a specific shirt for work, so I'm not sure that counts as doing it for me.
We had our 3 month Flr review a night or two ago. Knight said he knew he's been screwing up, and apologized for it. He says he'll try to do better in the next 3 months. I told him that he's been assuming things, and putting distance between us because he won't talk to me. I told him what I wanted to see change over the next 3 months, but I wasn't very complete or thorough about it because I felt horrible.
This morning, he disappointed me. We were lying in bed after his alarm went off and I started playing with his cock a little bit. I have been feeling pretty rotten this week, so there has been no sex play at all. He didn't warn me that he was close to coming. He didn't seem very close to to me, but he was.... and so he came this morning without my permission. He knew I was unhappy with him.
His chastity device isn't here yet. When it gets here he'll be wearing it.
I'm still not feeling so great, but the healing crisis is starting to fade. Ms sucks sometimes.. but, I shouldn't complain. A healing crisis is a good thing.